Soooo SCARY!!!

So on Tuesday we went to Utah for Joel get to some Manager Training classes.. So he was in Salt Lake while the boys and i were in Mountain Green.. The day was good so far.. Papa came to Debbie's (where we were staying to get ready) to pick us up so we could get some LUNCH!! Yumm... And we went to Micky Dee's.. After that we went on Base to run some errands with Papa.. Well after all the running around we went to Papa's to wash his CARS!! He made a deal with us.. We could swim in his hot tub if we would help him.. So we did.. the boys got in there suits and i borrowed some shorts.. While we were dying Car #2.. Brakken was laying on the driveway.. From a far he looked like he was wiggling around.. But when i called his name i realized he was not playing around.. The look in his eyes was GONE!! He had a glaze over them. He looked like a bad spirit took over his body. i picked him up.. Calling his name.. He didn't respond.. He was making really weird sounds.. He was shaking and jerking around as i held him.. The thoughts that were running through my mind were that i have read about this and seen it on TV about kids never snapping out of this kind of state.. he wouldn't come out.. I was terrified that i would never have him back.. My papa called 911.. Then i was crying uncontrollably while i thought i was loosing my son.. My papa told me to come inside.. I was holding him, while i kept calling his name.. He didn't look at me.. i said a prayer that he would be OK, and that i would have my baby boy back.. the tears kept rolling down my face as Papa asked me if he was breathing.... He was.. That was one think that i was for sure of.. Brakken was breathing and it was so HARD and HEAVY.. His lips were going blue as he kept shaking.. It felt like this was going on forever.. By the time the Ambulance got to my Papa's house he had stopped the shaking and now he was not there.. he was not responding to me.. He was kinda looking around.. But very slow.. Before the Ambulance showed up i had to call Joel so he could meet us at the hospital.. We had about 7 men and one women in the front room all around Brakken.. Madden was freaking out too.. He saw the terror in my eyes and knew something was wrong. They hooked Brakken up to some Oxygen. And were talking to him.. i don't really remember what was going on when they showed up.. I kinda got a feeling of relief when they got there.. But did they get there to late.. They had told me that Brakken had a SEIZURE!!! That it was probably from having a fever.. But to me he didn't feel WAY hot, just kinda warm.. Nothing that i felt i would need to take his temp.. So we got in the Ambulance while they asked me about what happened.. I cried every time.. Cuz i was not by him.. i didn't know if he fell to the ground or if he laid down.. I felt like i was a failure.. I could have helped him from having a seizure.. I'm supposed to protect him.. The whole time in the Ambulance the Lady was touching him and talking really loud so he could hear her.. but he didn't really respond til we were close to the hospital.. He was looking at me and telling me he didn't want to wear this oxygen mask.. We got to the hospital.. He was more alert now looking around.. He looking tired.. and i noticed the glaze from his eyes were gone.. They hooked him to machines.. Then when Joel got there they needed to take his blood and give him a Cat Scan.. I was so worried that they might find something in his brain... They got back to us and then.. Nothing!! They called it a FEBRILE seizure.. It happens to kids from 6 months to 8 years.. If the fever gets to high it can put them into a seizure.. Scary.. I know.. But Brakken seizure only lasted about 2-3 Minutes.. If anyone has a seizure you need to protect time from hurting themselves.. You don't HOLD them.. i know now what to do.. They told us we need to get him a EEG test done.. Which is where they monitor your brain to see if it was something other than a fever to set off the seizure.. He is home now.. And we have to watch him close to be there if another seizure comes.. His fever is gone and now he is back to his TALKATIVE self.. I asked him questions to see if he remembers riding in the Ambulance or being at the hospital.. He only remembers the Papa said they could get in the HOT TUB.. and now he can't... And he also remembers my mom getting there.. She got there when we were signing release forms... So he doesn't know why he was in the ER.. i hope he never remembers.. But this is us back at Papa's with his new animal named Ambulance.. They gave him this dog in the Ambulance.. i know very creative.. not really..

He is BACK!! Thank HEAVENS.. Yesterday our friend came over to help give Brakken a blessing.. Stronger in Numbers.. right?? i wanted to thank all the family that was supporting us while this happened.. I really am grateful to have people around me that care.. We love you.. Thanks.

ER visit Yesterday...

So yesterday when i was watching my shows.. I always get a drink and put it on the ground right next to the couch.. So i got off the couch.. And stepped on the glass that i was drinking out of.. I don't know how i broke the glass.. Maybe cuz i'm SOOO STRONG or FAT!! I'm leaning towards the strong... But this is what the cup looked like after i stepped on it.. (well After i set up the cup)

I had to walk to the phone to call LeeAnn to see if she could take me.. I'm not sure what i said to her but was freaking out!! And after i called her i told Madden to get me a towel.. And he got me the biggest towel and the whitest towel... What a big helper he is.. i got blood on the carpet and on my pants.. (i have to tell everyone that i can wear a size 6 now!!! Yay me..) I did call Joel after LeeAnn.. I feel bad now.. but i can't change who i called first...

after i calmed down a little more.. I thought i would go our neighbors right next to us to see if one of them could take me to the ER and then have LeeAnn watch the boys.. as I'm walking to our neighbors and to the car I'm bleeding like a lot.. I made sure i grabbed my wallet and check book.. After i looked at the insurance card.. I told EmberDee to go to the Insta Care.. An ER visit copay is $100!! And insta care visit is $40!! When we got the Insta Care it took them about 1hour and about 10 minutes before i got seen.. Then the DOC fixed me all up.. I got 4 stitches and HAD to get a tetanus SHOT!! The numbing shot hurt soooo sooo soo BAD.. i almost said a swear word.. Man that would have been really embarrassing.. I was wearing a long sleeve shirt so i had to take an arm out of my sleeve.. So the nurse now knows what religion i am.. hahaha.. Thanks EmberDee and LeeAnn for helping me in an emergency..

This is what my foot looks like now..

Without the sock..What's under the bandage..
I have to say something else.. I can't wear sandals.. I have to wear socks.. so if i want to wear sandals i have to wear socks.. So please don't look at me crazy cuz i have one sandal on my left foot and a sock on with a sandal on the right foot.. I'm glad that i get my stitches out before my friends wedding.. I'm a brides maid and i have to wear flip flops.. oh man.. This was one crazy adventure.. Now i hobble around.. And i can't put any pressure on my foot..

So the lesson that I've learned is not to put a GLASS cup on the ground.. Cuz someone could step on it and GET sent to the ER or INSTA CARE!!

Lesson LEARNED!!

Happy EARLY Mother's Day to ME!!!! and TERRIBLE NEWS!!!

So we celebrated Mother's Day early... Well for one reason and ONE reason only.. I'm the COOLEST mom ever.. jk.. That's not it.. Bcuz of BRITNEY SPEARS!!! She was in town for her Kick "A" Concert!!
I just LOVE his man..
I have a FAB hubby and he totally knows how to whoo me.. hahaha... Well before the Concert we wanted to get something to eat.. So we went to the Gateway Mall cuz it's right next to the old Delta Center (where she preformed).. Wrong time to eat.. It was like 6ish.. So we headed to Costa upstairs.. And to our luck it wasn't very busy, GOOD thing!! It was raining real hard outside so the floors were wet from every ones shoes!! and I have to admit that i walked in and SLIPPED!!! Right on my FACE!! Well my knees and hands!! I rolled my ankle.. And it still hurts today!! May i tell you that Joel's hand was NO WHERE to be found... And i tables were like not close to me.. So i fell BY MYSELF!!! I looked graceful when i walked in and then FELL like NOT graceful.. haha NOW i can laugh.. But i have to say every time that i looked at the spot i fell i would start chuckling!! I guess it's good that i can laugh at myself..

Here i am reenacting the fall...

But anyways!! We headed to the concert.. but i left my CAMERA in the CAR!! Totally forgot it in the CAR!! What a dummy!! (Well i just thought that she didn't allow Camera's like Mr. West..) But i have to say it was AWESOME!! I just love her.. And i have to also say that Joel said it was BETTER than Janet Jackson!! And that means ALOT!! Well who cares.. Well I do!! haha

Here I am with my GHETTO umbrella.. haha Girls gotta stay dry.. And i did..When you go to a concert you have to get things to remind you of how much fun you had!! Here are some of mine..

I'm never going to take this shirt off.... well... when i put it on...

I love BIG cups!! Less refills.. Thanks Joel!!That night was AWESOME!!! But the MORNING not so much.. And i have some Terrible NEWS!!! Madden FLUSHED my RING down the toilet at Debbie's house!! Out of Joel's and my ring, Madden wanted mine to take a dip in the potty water and then a swirl down down down the pipes of POO!!! We had a plumber over the take a camera down the pipes in the house to see if it was there... BUT NO!! It's not.. And may i mention that it cost $175 just to tell us that it wasn't in the PIPES!!Then we had a guy come that is a pro at looking in the pipes under the ROAD!! This guy looked all the way to the sewer tanks.. He looked for like 2 or 3 hours.. And this guy was "going" to charge us like $800 or more dollars to look but told us it was on HIM!! So FREE!! What a nice guy.. This same thing happened to him about 2 weeks ago with his wife's 25Th anniversary NEW ring.. So i think i know that he knew what we were going through!! Thanks man.. I didn't catch his name! But what a blessing.. Losing a ring and having to NOT pay alot of money for them looking and NOT finding!! So i called my mom to fill her in on what happened and she told me that i could call the Sewer Treatment Plant.. So I'm going to call them when they open.. She also told me that i should take a picture of my ring to them.. I sure do have one SMART MOMMY!! They for sure have to find my ring there.. cuz my ring is clearly not Biodegradable.. Here is what my hand looks like without my BEAUTIFUL ring on my finger.. But this a the picture that I'm going to give to the guys at the sewer place so they look for it and it does have a owner that is missing it.. I hope they are honest and give it back to me..
I have to tell you something funny.. Joel was talking to his friend that is a plumber and he said something funny about my ring... He said that if we find my ring in the sewer that he will have to tell me that i have a SHITTY Ring .. How funny is that.. i thought soo..hahaha.. You have to make a funny out of a bad situation.. Is what a great man said.. I think it was Gordon B.. But cross your fingers for me PLEASE.. so i can find my ring..

Thanks Mom for letting me wear your old set.. So i won't feel naked without MINE.. Thanks mom.. I don't feel so empty.. Here is what my left hand looks like now..

PAIN mixed with GROSS!!!

So yesterday i went to the dentist.. To get a crown put on a tooth that was killing me... But in the process of getting my tooth ready for the crown it had a fracture in it... So that means an unexpected ROOT CANAL!!! Well for starters I'm DEATHLY afraid of the dentist.. So i took about a hour to get me calm and numb... Then the other hour and a half was the fixing... (Thanks LeeAnn for watching the boys) So we had to put a temp thing on my tooth cuz we didn't have anymore time to get the root canal done.. So I'm 80% done with the root canal. So that means that i have 3 more dentist visits before i will have the crown done and no more work til next year.. So good and bad news!!! I'm not feeling the greatest.. And to make matters worst.... Madden throw up today.. For the past 3 or so days the boys have been taking turns on who is going to throw up next.. First Brakken (3 times... is the charm I'm guessing), then the next day Madden (3 times for him too), then yesterday we were in the clear.. NO THROWING up... Then today comes and Madden is starting back up.. I have found out that my kids can't eat PEACHES!! It doesn't set well with their little tummys!!! Well i think it could have been peaches with peanut butter on bread.. Cuz for the past few days all they wanted was pb 'n' j's.. So today has been hard and it's only 9:30 AM.. I hope it gets better..

Well another bummer is that I'm getting my wisdom teeth removed on Friday.. So I'm really NERVOUS!! But this is something that needs to be done. I've been holding it off for sometime now, and i can't keep putting it off.. So please could you cross your fingers for me that everything goes smooth..

Now I'm done complaining and feeling you in on my trials!!! I'm stepping down..

WHAT THE HECK!!!!!

SOOO the Bachelor Jason... WHAT THE HECK is going on in his HEAD!!! He is one CRAZY man!!! And Molly is one CRAZY girl to kiss him after he broke Melissa's heart!! For those that watched... I HATE Jason now.. What a PIG!!! Melissa DESERVES someone better than him... What did you think of After the Finale Rose show tonight???? I kinda worried about what's going to happen tomorrow on After the Finale Rose PART 2!!!

Ellen D.. Is going to have Jason on her show tomorrow... So I'm waiting to see what he says to Ellen about what he did.. And what she is going to say to him about what he did.. What a CRAZY situation... This is one of the main reasons why I'm GRATEFUL for the Gospel to be in my life!! I don't have to deal with all that CRAZY madness!! I've found the person that I'm spending FOREVER with... And I'm HAPPY that i know that, and have that in my life..

All i can say is "WHAT THE HECK...... Jason!!!"

Things i HAD to share

Carlos came over to our house to play.. LeeAnne has told me that he loves watching Nacho Libre.. So this is what he showed me, he said "LOOK it's NACHO LIBRE!!" I took a picture of Carlos so Madden wanted the same attention!! Here is Madden with is ROBOT!!

Oh yeah, Madden is GETTING POTTY TRAINED!! He is so READY to be a BIG boy like his Brother!! We started on Monday!! Hopefully he'll be completely potty trained in another week.. Cross your fingers for me..

This is what i found in my hair the other day.. Well i found it like a few weeks ago..

But was so embarrassed to share it.. I FOUND A SILVER-Shimmery HAIR on my HEAD!! How i found it was that i thought i should part my hair on the opposite side to add volume.. And THIS is what i found!! I had to run around the house looking for my tweezers to pull it out!! My first thoughts through my mind were that i am NO LONGER youthful!! I'm not young anymore.. But when i talked to my mom and LeeAnne about it.. They both have gotten SILVER-Shimmery hairs early in their lives too.. So the thoughts of my loosing my youthfulness was starting to fade.. So now i feel i can share my Shimmery-SILVER hair with everyone.. But i think it's time to color my hair again!! Have any of you found any SILVER-Shimmery hairs on your head in your early 20s?? Let me know..

Past Weeks in a NUT SHELL.....

So on last Tuesday... Brakken and Madden wanted to slam their bed room door.... Maddie on the inside and Brakken in the hall... i hear a really LOUD slam and then i hear Brakken SCREAMING.. I knew what happened!! And his fingers were STUCK in the DOOR!! I paniced and went FUNG FOO on the door to kick it down... Oh yeah i have to remind you the door was locked and i was BARE FOOT!! So these are the pictures after what happened.. Brakken is ok and so are his fingers.. After the screaming stopped i thought about it over with Leeanne and i think i could have just pulled his fingers out.. they were only shut in the door a little bit... i use to think people were crazy and epesially MY MOM when she jumped off a 2 story building to get my brother after he got hit by a CAR!! or even when you hear about moms that lift cars off of their kids!! So now i DON'T think they are ANY bit crazy!! Cuz i'm one of them!!














Then on WEDENSDAY... Leeanne and myself went to that work out thing at the church.. Cherri is the teacher and SHE IS GREAT!!! We did an Awesome job teaching us and i bet after she told her hubby that we are so NOT talented!! haha




FRIDAY.. We celebrated my MOM's birthday!! Happy Birthday MEMA!! (that's what the boys call her) WE LOVE YOU!! So for her birthday, her and the boys took pictures!! She needed new pictures in her house to update her new life as a GRANDMA!!!
the day was like this: Jeramia's for breakfast, took pictures and then went to MY grandma and MY papa's house!!! We hung out for a long while... then i was off to get JOEL from work and drive home to have a GNO... We got pizza and Leeanne and myself left for BOWLING!! We had a blast!! We both suck but this game we did really good Leeanne got 117 and i got 90... But i got a STRIKE the first bowl.. but got a F for passing the line!! How crazy is that!! it made me PRETTY MAD cuz STRIKES don't happen to me OFTEN!!

Then the weekend was CONFERENCE!! I loved all the talks.. And after listening to everyone speak i feel energized.. And Joel and i started this new thing... Every conference we get NEW G's.. YEA US!!

Well that's sums up the past few days!!

Oh yeah tonight is the work out group thing at the CHUCH at 9pm... So come with a towel and a water bottle!! Hope to see you there!!

More Birthday....

I wouldn't say FUN but i wouldn't say the WORST either... i should know by now, but i don't.. Well now i do.. OK the point.. I TOOK THE BOYS TO TAKE PICTURES ALL BY MYSELF!!! WRONG!! I was in the pictures too so it was real hard for me to look cute (for myself) and help get the boys looking nice or even in the pictures looking normal.. Well picture taking normal looking.. They wanted to WRESTLE!!! The whole time!!
But i have to admit the pictures turned out AWESOME!!! But i don't get them until October the 1st!! SUCKY!! But you can't get everything on YOUR BIRTHDAY! I had learned that this birthday... the hard way!! But after PICTURES.. we went to FIRE HOUSE for dinner, my FAV.. And after that we headed to COLD STONE for my FREE birthday ICE CREAM... i love ice cream....especially Cold Stone... So when Joel got off work my day got better.. Then we came home after all the fun and craziness and WATCHED... Do you want to be on Top? Can you guess... I'm not likin this season to much.. But I'm still a FAN!!
Thanks to everyone who WISHED me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Hawaii Trip

This is our First Day May 20th 2008

Second Day! Take a look. May 21st 2008
My dad came to pick us up at Michelle's place at 8am. We headed to my dad's for breakfast. We had ate some smoked pork with eggs and rice.Yum. We stayed at my dad's for awhile, while he put up a fan in his back room. I blogged a little. Then off for a walk at Coconut Island. My dad left us there so he could go to his physical therapy. He picked us up at like 2:30ish. Then we got some Lunch at L&L. So yummy! Then went to get some clothes for my sister Nohea's wedding! We found some cute clothes. After that we headed to my dad's house for Pizza. I got to meet her soon to be husband Josh and her little baby boy Rian. They are such a cute family!

Third Day May 22nd 2008

We went to the Volcano place. We saw the new hole that the Volcano made only 2months ago. We saw the Crater and walked through a volcano tube! That was way cool. Then ate lunch at Blane's. So Ono. (delicious). That's when we tried there famous mac salad. (macironi salad) Then BACK to my dad's house. i never understood why my dad kept taking us there. He knows that his wife lisa hates me. But my dad is sometimes clueless, maybe that's where i get a little bit of it from. Nana(lisa's mom), Tina(lisa's sister), and Andrew(lisa's nephew) flew in for the wedding. Lisa made dinner, it was Kahlua and cabbage. Sounds weird but super good, you eat it over rice. I've noticed that almost everything in Hawaii is with rice. But nohea,Josh and Rian came over too. It was nice to see all new faces again! Then went home at about 10ish.

Forth day May 23rd 2008

We went to my dad's again!! Why i thought! But whatever right. Well we went to help a little before the Bridal shower for my sister that was later that day at 4pm or 6pm. And lisa was on one. Even her sister said so. But as for the big issue i had with her was today. She was talking with my dad about if we were done looking at the sites and he said no. She wanted him to help and my dad said no again. He was talking with her and i walked in front of them while they were talking. (she was in the kitchen and he was sitting at the dinner table. I was walking around looking for Brakken) But as you can imagine she started to yell at me say "Raelynn I'm talking to your dad" and i replied saying "and I'm looking for my Son" (think why is she telling me that. I already knew)and she kept repeating Raelynn I'm talking to your dad. I asked her to stop yelling at me and she claimed she wasn't (but i swear she was). Then i told her to shut up. Probably not the best thing to say but she started freaking out and then she walked up to me (may i mention that she is drinking a beer and it's in her hand) and......(you'll never guess).... she pushed me and wanted to fight me!!! What a crazy lady!!! She is 45 and mine 21... Who in the world wants to fight there step daughter.. i know lisa. She kept telling me to get the F@#$ out of her house! Over and over again! She was like right in my face!! Finally my dad had to interfere (why not sooner i don't know??). She was so out of control my dad had to push her!! It took so much of me not to push her back but Brakken was right next to me when that crazy lady shoved me. I don't think that my son should ever see me when i get out of control. So she did all of this in front of her mom(Nana), her sister (Tina), her Nephew (Andrew), my dad, Joel, and Brakken. I couldn't help but to cry. Her mom was crying and said why are you doing this, my granddaughter is getting married. Her sister Tina apologized to me for her sisters behavior. I knew that something like this would happen but i didn't want it to! So after i got in the car, Lisa followed us out side and was trying to justify that what she did was ok. And started to apologize to Joel saying that I caused all this drama or whatever and was saying sorry to Joel! I just wanted to leave and didn't understand why my father would let something like this happen!! I didn't want to even look at him I was so mad! I was even mad a Joel for hugging her!! (after she apologized to Joel she hugged him) I swear she has a chemical imbalance, but I'm no doctor.
After all that excitement(drama) i had to pray and take a nap... I wanted to fight fire with fire by calling the police and pressing charges but i knew that would make things worse! So i just called my mom and if she could've flown out here she would have went to jail for me. Thanks mom i love you!! But I'm not that lucky!! My dad took her side again. I felt so heart broken!! Again why... I'm so done with her, she is dead to me.

but it leave on a good note after the nap we headed to Walmart to get the boys slippas (flip flops). Then back to Coconut Island again and this time we took a swim. It was nice to be with the people that I'm sealed to... My amazing husband Joel and my SONshines!!

The other days are coming soon.

Excitement TURNS TO Nervous

Well today is the last day in the U T. and I'm getting really nervous! but before last night i was really excited! But as i look back at all the moments (big moments) in my life, i was super excited and the day of or right before my excitement turned to nerves. Like cold feet the day Joel and i got married, and the time we were in the session and they asked if anyone feels they shouldn't be here then you can leave now.... well i was thinking about leaving.. but with both of those moments in my life i couldn't wait for that moment to come! Or the time when my dad come to Utah, to see me for the first time in 7 almost 8 years. i thought i would throw up but the day before that i was so excited to see his face!
I don't know if it's Satan telling me that i don't deserve all my family to love me or just me. It feels weird to see my dad again, to go back.... Back meaning....to go back to Hawaii, and after the biggest heart break ever. The flight to Hawaii will be a new start or just a new heart ache. Maybe that's why I'm nervous. I don't know anyone that Loves or even likes to get there heart broke. But I've been wrong many time.....
I plan to go to Hawaii with a open heart and mind. So Hawaii here WE come.

I Got This as an Email and Loved IT!! I Hope you Do Too! Part 2

Part 2

Furthermore...

Some Mormon guys can throw a ball...
Some Mormon guys yell at the ball...

Some Mormon guys make scary movies...

Some Mormon guys have a lot of money and really great hair...
I know hundreds of Mormon guys. They do all kinds of different things and live all kinds of different lives.

This is one of the leaders of the Mormon church. Last Sunday he spoke about honoring women, especially mothers, and gave advice to husbands and children about how to treat the women in their lives. (For the whole story, click here.)

None of the Mormon men I know look like this...

The Mormon men I know are honest and hard-working. They don't cheat, smoke, drink or gamble. And TRUST ME....the last thing any of them want is another wife.

I Got This as an Email and Loved IT!! I Hope you Do Too!

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For those of you who have been watching the news and may have wondered....

Some Mormon women sing...

Some Mormon women dance...
Some Mormon women write scary stories...

Some Mormon women have lots of money and really great hair...
I know hundreds of Mormon women.

They do all kinds of different things and live all different kinds of lives.


This woman served as a leader in the Mormon church. She recently spoke to teenage girls worldwide. She encouraged them to stand up to peer pressure, strengthen their families and serve others. (Click here for more.)


None of the Mormon women I know look like this...
None of them are marrying off their teenage daughters and-- although some may joke about wanting a sister-wife (preferably one who is really fat & ugly, does bathrooms and changes diapers)--none of them really want to share their husband with anyone.

Before and After Surgery

This is a picture of my middle finger...you can kinda see the small bump. Well after surgery they found out it was not a cyst, it was extra nerve tissue. but good news it was not cancerous.
That the good old wrist... now hopefully no bump!
This is what it looks like now.. all bandaged up.. kinda hurts but not as bad as i thought. Oh yeah that is my new bracelet Joel made for me at the Tree House Museum. Thanks Joel, now my hand looks a little prettier.Look how swollen my fingers are! So i wear my wedding ring on my right hand.. Kinda weird but i love to wear it.